I just wanted to share some news. I'm a week and a half clean of self ham and going strong. I made a promise to two people who mean the world to me and they've kept their ends of the deal so I have to keep mine. I broke it once but they don't know and I felt so guilty for it that there is no way I was going to let it happen again.
Thank you everyone for your ongoing support! You can't do this alone, I've tried and failed many times.