Friday, 16 September 2016
It has tips on loosing weight safely, my weight loss journey and using biology to debunk the bullshit! Would be awesome if you could check it out.
Saturday, 10 September 2016
Just to sum up this month to show you why I am so broke:
-£50 for phone bill
-£25 for biology text books
-£25 for sociology textbooks
-£30 for clothes (yes it was a necessary expense including work shoes and trust me, I buy as cheap as possible)
-£100 for driving lessons
-Money for lunch. Oh wait, I couldn't afford it.
Lets add this up shall we? So I'm loaded, right?
Bank balance: -£160
If I'm so rich why am I so badly broke?
To cover costs I've had to embarrassingly grovel to teachers for help with textbooks, get my mum to pay for driving lessons and borrow money for clothes. Now who's so rich?
And for those who think i can just go to my parents can I remind you that they don't work. My mum is disabled and my dad's her carer. There is no money so please don't talk to me about money. It is a sore point and never accuse me of lying about how much money I have. In case you missed, I can't even afford to get lunch when I'm at work or school. Welcome to the reality of my life.
Tuesday, 6 September 2016
Sorry I've not been very active but it's a good thing. I'm getting better and doing really well. I'm back at school and going into year 13, my last ye before university with any luck so I have a lot of work to do. I need to do the impossible and bring my grades up by a minimum of a grade preferably 2 so its going to be a long year! Hoping to do a longer post soon but everything is up in the air at the moment so can't give a date.
Tuesday, 30 August 2016
I did a whole research project on it for my EPQ (the equivalent of the first year of A levels) so I know what I'm talking about it and seeing as 1 in 4 people are suffering with mental health problems this is serious shit that needs to be addressed.
- Depression and sadness are the same
- "But you don't look sick!"
- It's a sign of weakness
- It's all in your head
- Real men don't get depression
- Self harm is for attention seekers
- Self harm leads to suicide
Things really are looking up right now. I'm one week panic attack free and 2 weeks self harm free. That may not seem big to someone who doesn't suffer with depression but to anyone who is or has been in my position you'll know that a big deal! Things really are looking up and I owe it all to a couple of my friends who have taken to snapchatting me every day to make me laugh. I really don't deserve them! They're the best!
Thursday, 25 August 2016
It's such a cliché when it comes to mental health that you're a different person on your own but its true. I break down and cry because it's the only time I get to. I put on a mask during the day and when I'm in bed I can take that mask off and all those thoughts I've had to block out or ignore come flooding back and often it leaves me numb. Imagine each thought was a person and they're all rushing to get through the door at the same time. They are just going to get stuck and that's when you feel numb. This is without a doubt the worst part. You feel like crap but you don't know why.
Then comes the onslaught. One frees itself unblocking the door and all of these thoughts just come flooding in. That's the point where you loose it. Floods of tears and when you need someone you can trust the most.
This is why you need someone you really trust. Someone you can take off the mask in front of a bit. Someone who isn't family and may not even be a friend as such. You just need to let the cracks show for a bit so you can deal with everything rationally. Don't go it alone.
Wednesday, 24 August 2016
I've changed a lot and I needed a way to show it and... Well... This has done the trick! Dyed my hair BRIGHT pink! Like really pink! I love it! I wasn't going to go this pink but I left my hairdresser in charge and it looks lush. It's for you, Charlie! 💖